published?

So, I submitted around to online lit mags this summer and was notified today that I've been published by Stirring, which I've always enjoyed reading in the past. Cool, yeah? Check it.

Aside from this, I'm just trying to get through my days without falling asleep or falling apart. I try to see Mike as often as possible. I'm trying to wean off of the caffeine. Might take a nap now.

Pretty excited that someone read my poem :)

two days off; cooking, writing.

i had yesterday off and also today. my parents are in orlando, working, so i have the house to myself, windows all open, lights off. it's very nice.

yesterday morning i got a massage from a girl at work who is an aesthetician and deep tissue massage therapist. she came over to my house and i laid on a mattress under a window and wrote poems in my head for an hour. it was amazing and soothing and she was so intuitive and skilled. perfect way to begin my two days off. spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning my room, listening to liz gilbert's eat pray love on cd, writing in between loads of laundry.

i made dinner last night for mike: steak tips marinated in balsamic vinegar, worcestershire sauce, soy sauce, fresh basil from my plant outside, olive oil, and garlic. sauteed the steak in the marinade with onions, garlic, and shallots. topped it on the plate with homemade herb butter. asparagus risotto. garlic flatbread. broccolini sauteed in the herb butter. the best part was the dessert: sugar plums sauteed in melted butter, brown sugar, and cinnamon, all served over lemon ice cream, which was originally vanilla ice cream, which i doctored up. it was amazing. i forgot to take pictures. had some kind of red wine. all supplies from trader joe's. :)

today was for sleeping and dishes. we're going to see journey, heart, and cheap trick tonight at deer creek-- er, excuse me, verizon, so i bought a six-pack of two-hearted and made big sandwiches: smoked turkey, muenster, bacon, romaine, mustard on fresh french bread. extra plums. i'm excited.

mike's mom is visiting this weekend, my parents come home friday, and tomorrow work begins again, in earnest, again. but these two days have been a welcome oasis in the frenzy of working i've been fizzling around in the past three weeks. i apologize to everyone i've not called back, emailed back, texted back. i can barely brush my teeth sometimes, but i promise i will write you or call you soon. i miss my friends and soulmates.


shalomshalom.

no no no no no.

i can't stand sarah palin. i can't stand mccain.
i just wanted to say that.
i think i should move out until november.


http://www.latimes.com/news/opinion/commentary/la-oe-steinem4-2008sep04,0,7915118.story

http://www.thedailyshow.com/video/index.jhtml?videoId=184086&title=sarah-palin-gender-card

http://www.alternet.org/reproductivejustice/97457/an_open_letter_to_gov._sarah_palin_on_women%27s_rights/

http://www.salon.com/opinion/feature/2008/09/05/palin_bush/

http://www.salon.com/env/feature/2008/09/05/sarah_palin_down_syndrome/

http://www.salon.com/opinion/feature/2008/09/05/palin_bush_quiz/

http://www.salon.com/opinion/feature/2008/09/05/maher_obama/

now september.

turns out it's september now. it's been raining here for a couple of days. i like it; we need the rain. i started my second job two weeks ago as a server at a brewery about fourteen miles from my parents house and only a couple minutes from mike's apartment. i like it so far-- it's pretty chill and the people are cool. i just need to figure out how to make people give me tips. fat tips. anyhow, i've been working double shifts for the past two weeks and still don't have much of a chance to sit down. i'm lucky i've showered, to be honest.

the trip to michigan was amazing. it was the first time in probably nine months that i felt anxiety slide off of me and could really sit still and be with people. these friends are so easy to be with, too. that's so rare. it was wonderful.

on my way south i stopped in wheeler to meet mike's mom and grandparents on his birthday. listened to some jimmy swaggart with his grandpa and drank sunday afternoon away at some tiny bar across the street from his house. it was quite a trip.

anyhow, i'm tired and drained of all creative energy, but feeling curiously positive despite all that. must get ready for work.


xoxoxo